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[Kana isn't here anymore. She didn't pack any of her stuff like she was planning to go away or anything, so all of her personal affects are entirely in their place.

There's a journal by her bedside table: not much is inside of it, but she's written "DREAM JOURNAL" on the introductory page in big letters.

There's also two sealed letters inside of the journal marked "IN CASE I DIE" and "FOR SATSUKI: IN CASE I DIE" tucked into the pages.]

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bellpepperexercise

Satsuki,

I’m probably dead if you’re reading this. ~~At least, I better be dead because if you read this while I’m still alive I’m gonna get really pissed off. What part of “In Case I Die” don’t you understand?~~

Sorry. I’m not gonna yell at you from beyond the grave. I already hurt you enough by dying probably.

First off, it’s not your fault. I know you so you’re probably going to blame yourself for not being able to stop me from dying, but it’s not your fault. I actually am gonna come yell at you from beyond the grave if you convince yourself that it is. I could probably do it too since we had that seance. So this is a real threat, Satsuki Minazuki.

I’m gonna be a little selfish and ask that you don’t forget about me. Even if it’s just as a girl you went to high school with who died because she fell down the stairs after pissing someone off or however I got myself killed.

I want you to remember me for more than that, though. You made me feel really happy and safe. I know that doesn’t sound like a big deal but We’re being haunted and murdered.

I wrote down everything I could remember from the dreams in the journal by my bed. I don’t know if it’ll help but it’s okay to show the others if it ends up meaning something.

Don’t show this one to anybody else though, please? I can’t do anything about it if you do since I’ll be dead but you’re the only person I want to read this.

I don’t know if I should be allowed to tell you how I feel after everything. But I hope I did and this isn’t the first time you’re hearing it.

Either way I’m sorry.

And I love you.

Kana

Edited Date: 2025-05-11 12:32 am (UTC)

From:

bellpepperexercise

ONE
Do NOT eat the mushrooms they make whatever’s going on here worse
The night Sayo and Misty died I followed a noise and found a man with a pepper for a head in a tracksuit
I think it was making fun of me because he started playing that damn song that just will not die.
He pissed me off and then jumped right in front of me, so I hit him.
His head was too soft. Somewhere between pulp and congealed blood. It smelled awful, like when trash piled up in the house.
Did it get inside my head?

TWO
There was the fire and we all died. I guess we all had that dream so why? And was the Interim Headmistress really the one who did it?
Why were we all in the picture if somebody had to die to go to trial?
What were we on trial for?
We were burned. Like witches.
What happened?

THREE
I was talking to that boy about something. I remember him from that movie. Aqua Hoshino. I haven’t seen him since he was four.
If my dream’s right, he grew up to be just as big a pain.
Isn’t he in Japan? Why were we both in school uniforms?

FOUR
Aqua AGAIN. GO AWAY
I was on a stage, dancing with two other girls that look my age. One of them was the other kid. Aqua’s annoying sister. The way she was shining on that stage was dazzling though. It was like she was born for it
The other girl I could have sworn I’ve seen in some video on YouTube before? I’ve never met her in person but in the dream it felt like she was a kindred spirit or some crap
Then Aqua. He looked like an idiot, dancing with all three of our glow stick colors like a full on idol otaku.
It made me happy, though. I wanted him to keep cheering me on.
But I woke up feeling sick. It wasn’t even a bad dream, so why?
Has something been taken from me? If another Kana Arima that never left Japan is in another universe, why would I be seeing her memories?
It’s like my head’s been fractured. If I think too hard about it I start to feel dizzy.

FIVE
I don’t think I was me in this one. I was running in a forest. I felt like if I stopped, they’d catch me. I think whoever was chasing me, but I felt like some higher power wanted to punish me and I don’t know what I did that was such a crime.
Was it the girl I held onto? I must have loved her. The only thing I could do was hang onto her hand and run. It was all we had.
I just lost my best friend so I thought it might be symbolic but Thomasin told me she dreamed about the same thing.
What if someone who can’t talk to us is trying to tell us something?
Do ghosts communicate in dreams? Check the books

Edited Date: 2025-05-11 12:25 am (UTC)

From:

bellpepperexercise

Don’t worry about contacting my mom. I think she’s outgrown me by now and I’m not sure I want to imagine how she would or wouldn’t react.

I’m bad at writing a will to anybody specific but I don’t really have much besides the things Rinne found. I guess if she starts trying to freeze you guys out again, raid my closet as much as you want. I’m not gonna use it anymore.

Could somebody pick up the paper cranes for me, please? I finished Rinne’s but I’m only up to about 154 on my own since I suck at it.

You’re all good people. I’m bad at being honest and never really know how to say I appreciate people but
I hope I’m the last one to die if anything happens to me.